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it's now my 2nd night here in manila.. i just came from 88DB.com sponsored event for bloggers at katips bar and grill- katipunan ave. i think i only stayed for 3 hours. it's not that bad for a party.. i love the unlimited free photos and the loot bag.. i love the FREE business cards they made. the card has my name, profession, email add, blog URL and even my phone number. they really know how to surprise people.. I LOVE IT! :D how thoughtful!

being a blogger really has its benefits alright.. i saw a lot of popular bloggers. well some were just introduced to me by dak.. he is the hardcore blogger.. the one who motivated me to open up a new blog.. from my simple friendster blog.. i moved here in blogspot.. lots of drama in the former blog.. :p

yesterday, we went to trinoma for the spot.ph event.. we entered each participating restos(mostly those on the top floor, the ones in the garden and near the cinema)-ruby tuesday, cyma, jack's loft, holy cow, abe, cafe briton, la maison, fish and co., bubba gump, red box, italliani's, madison's grill, recipes, haiku, cold rock, krispy kreme, and even starbucks served us with food and drinks.. every stop, there was food.. they keep giving us this and that.. they were really generous but i couldnt accomodate everything in my stomach.. it's as if i ate a 20 course meal! or even more. we were eating for 4 hours. so i think my blood glucose that time never had the chance to return to its normal level. lol.. by the time we reached haiku, i really wanted to try the fried maki and the salad they served but i was already so full and stuffed that time so the waiter just smiled and asked if it will be "to go".. i love japanese food.. if it was salmon sashimi then i guess that would be a different story..i really like haiku and cyma.. the others were also great but i would love to go back to these two restos.. maybe when i have the moolah or when im with mom and dad.. hay im still a student.. so im still a poorita.

part 2 of this event will happen on monday april 28(also my special day so i cant come) at bonifacio highstreet..

after trinoma we headed straight to mr kabab west ave to meet up with my med school friends..my treat.. traffic was bad. my friends arrived one by one. james and meldz, from makati, were the last to arrive. they had a hard time looking for the resto. mr kabab actually moved from corner of west and quezon ave and is now at west ave qc with a bigger place and a bigger parking lot. jac, dak and i were still full that time from the spot event so didnt eat. the place was really packed that night. so service was also slow. we finished at around 10!
we went to centerstage afterwards..it's a ktv bar owned by local actress. i like that place. it was actually our 2nd time to go there. we love videoke! after 2 hours of karaoke and 2 buckets of beer, fortunately i still had enough money to pay for the bill.. lucky me!

ohryt..im too sleepy to type anything more.. it's already 220 AM..

this is me on the new issue of MODEL.. lol..

goodnight guys! i would like to greet arthur of chickenmafia..nice meetin yah! i really like your costume..:D did u win? who won the PSP, btw? :D


who stole my magic..?

i admit im not that good in putting my feelings into words.. but as you can see.. im not so active here in my blog lately.. it reflects my mood..oh well.. id rather go out.... but i cant.. maybe after 2 days when i can wash my hair already..

i just had a hair rebond last night.. yeap..it was already night when we finished.. we started at 4pm.. i didnt expect it to be that long. my dad invited me to go to manila today.. but i told him i wouldnt be able to wash my hair for two days so im not really in the mood to go. too bad.. i just asked for pasalubong..

two days ago, i saw this book in a bookstrore.. title of the book is who stole my magic: (the smart girl's guide to surviving a breakup).. yeap! im single again.. the breakup was long overdue.. i guess we never should have been together after all.. but then it happened and so i can only be thankful for the lessons.. i chose to leave not because there is no more love.. but i believe it is for the best.. the relationship isn't going anywhere.. it doesnt feel right anymore.. we've been stuck. we have to grow..and we're better off apart. i have my share of mistakes. but that's life..add the trust issues.. haay it was really complicated. and so im here now. i want peace. im recuperating.. as i read the book, i think im on the right track to recovery.. im planning to lend the book to my friend ana.. like me, she had her heart broken as well but i believe hers was a much devastating case..hers came as a shock..caught her off guard.. i can only imagine the pain.. compared to mine which was like a chronic infection.. been slowly killing me for some time now without me knowing it..or maybe i just kept ignoring it. women are different compared to men (whats new) when it comes to recovering after a lost love. it is due to the fact that men are more practical while women are more emotional.. anyways, the goal is the same. and that is to reach full recovery!

my friends kept telling me that it was really good and they are happy that ive finally come to my senses.. all i need to do now is move one.. im on a journey.. slowly but surely, ill find my magic once again.

bought the book. thought i could read it while getting my hair done. i finished it in no time.. just 90 pages short but really packed with lessons..at the end of every chapter, the author gives the readers several smart moves that they can try themselves that may help them alleviate the pain and help them in their recovery. ill mention some of the points:

1. denial-a lot of us are guilty of this. immediately after a breakup, you'll refuse to believe that the relationship has indeed ended.. you'll expect that you two could still get back together, you'll try to wind the ex back etc etc.. sadly, a lot of girls never get the chance to overcome this stage..there are girls who pester the ex even if the latter is already in another relationship. oh well.. acceptance is the key. accept that the relationship is over. it's ok to be a wreck. it is just natural.. cry all u want until you can cry no more. talk to your family and persons closest to you.

2. dont bother asking why's and stop asking what if's- don't try to make sense of the situation coz it will only drive you nuts. asking why a person doesnt love us is like asking why the sun shines or why the wind blows. you love and that's it. you dont love because you dont. that simple.. instead of asking why you aren't good enough, ask yourself why you are better off alone.

3. sad songs, love stories-dont listen to sad, senti, emo love songs-i know you are also guilty of it. makes sense right? when you are depressed and sad, listening to every sad song over and over again would even make you more sad. you'll even think that every sad love song was especially written and composed for you. burn a cd of your favorite happy songs.. no sad songs for you.. listen to i will survive perhaps?;) i added love stories. i guess it is better not to watch love stories during these times cos it will only make you feel worse.. lol.. ive been feeling bad after watching those love stories and i kept wondering why.. may be deep inside.. i knew i was not happy.. oh well.

4. makeover-heartbreak even if we deny it or not has that effect of bruising one's ego. you'll feel that somehow you lost some spark-those things that once made you felt special, pretty, witty and funny. it is common to see some heartbroken girls having their long hairs cut really short.. whats really needed is not a drastic change but enhancement.. i had a rebond.. lol.. and im planning to go tothe gym when i can wash my hair already. i want to tighten my abs.. :p
"beauty may only be skin deep and tru beauty may lie in the soul, but it doesnt hurt to have your outsides looking good when your insides are badly bruised."

5. dont be bitter,cynical and jaded- it is normal to be angry but you shouldnt let it reside in your heart for too long. dont let it consume you. one reason-bitterness makes you look uglier.
"People will always gravitate to other people who radiates with warmth and happiness"
it is tempting to tell the whole world how evil your ex was but then it would be better if you just let the issue go if people try to ask you bout what happened. another reason for this is in order to save yourself from shame if you get back with your ex, right? what if you told the whole world how much of a two-timing liar that bastard was.. but then what if you got back together.. are you willing to deny what you said?

smart move(i like this one):

  • write on a list all the things you resent about your ex and the relationship. make sure to include every lie he told and every action he never did that caused you pain. (plus everything he did not that caused you pain)
  • study the list and understand what may have motivated the actions. you may come to realize that many of the things he did were not out of malice but out of fear, insensitivity or ignorance.
  • accept that what happened in the past can no longer affect you unless you let it and, if possible, forgive the person for hurting you.
  • finally burn the list(the dramatic part!;p). let the burning be the symbol of your release-from any pain and bitterness that the affair may have caused you(also you dont want to one day be reminded of your grief if you come across this list in some near forgotten file). as the list burns, repeat to yourself that you are free.

6. "Travel, go somewhere you've never been. you need to get away from your immediate surroundings and realize that there is a huge world out there with endless possibilities and billions of people that you've never met."-
go to a place alient to you-it could be another city, town or country. meet new people and experience new things and culture. that's another one of my plans for the summer. :) just meet and greet and have fun. meet new people. being single has a lot of advantages and learn from other people's relationships. take a step back and observe.

7. Find a new passion- it could be a new job, a new hobby or interest. put that passion into another thing instead of another person. keep yourself busy. be good at another thing. go to the gym, yoga class, cooking and baking class, photography lessons. there's a lot.. take your pick. me? ill go to the gym. i plan to focus on my studies more. :)

those are just some of the points that i got from the book. i think i would be ok to just stop there. i highly recommend it. it is a nice read.



the poker application in friendster isnt working. looks like the server is down since i added it in my profile.. my brother is a poker addict himself(in friendster). he taught me how to play poker and been motivating me to play as well.. hehe..since i was bored, i thought why not? got nothing to lose.. except for play money.. i think god is saving me from getting hooked also.

since im online and been planning to get a haircut.. i just searched the net for new haircut styles.. i think i like cristine reyes' new haircut.. haha.. and you may ask, who she is ? well.. she's an actress here in the philippines, sister of former sexy star ara mina. if you'll read the wikipedia bout cristine, you'll learn that she is the real ara. nice to know.. lol

im still thinking bout it.. whether ill have my hair cut short or just have it treated, trimmed and maybe ill have some bangs.. hm.. whatever. :)

i found other things in the net.. my super old webpage and our highschool class website which i made.. unfortunately, the first webpage that i made doesnt exist anymore. i just found these.. why dont you try clicking the pictures and see them for yourself? tell me what you'll hear..

my old site (actually the 2nd one i made)
i used to have a video here, showing me sliding back and forth

Porwan_02 (Miriam College HS section 4-1 class of 2002)
site contains pictures and profiles of classmates, class writeup etc.


ive just finished updating my blog layout.. i had to make some changes.. i think its just right to have a new template since i got a new banner! yep.. nico malala (dak's brother) was super bait, super nice to make me one. what would you want in exchange? lol anyway, thanks a lot! im super touched.

my new banner (click to enlarge)
few of my favorite things and interests.. see? no sports or phys activity of any sort..lol

ok, ive just finished my chores for today.. my kuya's 3 kids stayed here in our house the whole morning. it's just natural as an adult to look after the kids when their parents are not around.. grabe, so tiring.. i was sweeping the whole time. i even taught them how to clean. may be they'll learn to minimize their mess even a bit..

so what's up with my summer so far?? ...?

today is supposed to be my first day a work.. but i didnt go.. i went there last week and i was surprised that they had more than enough MT's. the census of their hospital right now is low. meaning, few patients are going in. benign.. and one more thing, i dont feel like working there because my ninong(godfather) who's a part owner of the hospital would just be obliged to give me money and give me a job even if im not needed there. hehe.. i think ill be of more use if i just help around the house, and just be my mom's driver. haay.. i had a lot of plans during the start of summer but seems that i havent accomplished any of them yet.. what the heck!! ill just relax and enjoy. as i usually say, no expectations, no disappointments. :) at least i got to swim already.. i was really happy coz i bought new board shorts and 2 pc swimsuit.. haha.. hay.. im about to become older again.. just a couple more weeks to go. maybe ill go to the beach... but i dont like to have a tan.. hehe..

hundred islands? pede.. :)

if someone's planning to get me gift(yes i like gifts..love 'em!:>), i would like a magic sing..
a silver edition would do. :) pwde rin mabuhay edition.. lol.. i want to practice my vocal chords.. and if u know me, well.. i love to sing.. i love ktv.. i dunno if singing loves me. . i used to be a glee club member back in highschool though. another nice gift would be a puppy.. i really need someone to hug right know.. someone i can take care of.. i need to divert my mind and attention.. i still remember my old dog.. boyet.. we lost him last year.. he was taken.. stolen..:(

missing boyet

oh i remembered! our class president, eug, told me that he'll give me a puppy! i want another labrador puppy. hm.. :)


it's so cloudy today.. as if it isnt summer.. i think there is a typhoon right now. i heard my niece a while ago telling me there is a bagyo named ambo. hm.. buti pa sha she watches the news noh? :)


my brother, michael, graduated last april 5 from Feu college of nursing.. yey! a male nurse.. i would like to congratulate him.. actually, 4 in our family graduated this year.. ate myrene, my sister in law also finished her degree in hotel and restaurant management. after the very long and difficult OJT, she finally made it! my 2 nephews graduated from pre-school as well. Mika, finished nursery, martin finished kinder. Congratulations to all of them. :)
my mom cried during Mike's pinning ceremony.. she couldnt believe that her bunso(youngest child) finally finished school.. so technically, im the only one left posponing my parents' retirement. :p hehehe.. just a few more years..
i went to SM-MOA with my kuya while mom and dad attended mike's graduation at picc.. i actually just spent my whole time just walking around the mall.. i bought a rubik's cube from toy kingdom.. just the 3x3x3 cube..
after Mike's grad, the original plan is that we are going to saisaki for dinner but on our way there, the changed the plan out of the blue and just decided to eat at ma mon luk.. im not sure who suggested to eat there but they all agreed to just go to ma mon luk.. well, except for me.. sashimi na sahimi na ko nun! :p

i was the one who took the picture so obviously im absent in the picture..
hehe (L-R: mike, dad, kuya mark and our mom)

i think im really the blacksheep of the family.. im the different and weird one.. hehe.. i always have a different opinion and i want different things.. anyway, i didnt want to be a kj, so i just agreed and also ordered mami. i ate some of mommy's siopao.. you see... ma mon luk mami is best eaten with siopao, a sweet pork dumpling. my brothers and our dad love to eat their mami with siopao sauce and hot sauce. (ma mon luk mami has that distinct urine like smell..the aromatic smell.. not the smell of UTI urine.. lol )
ma mon luk mami

(trivia: fresh urine is normally sterile and bacteria-free and smells aromatic but when left standing, bacteria degrades urea to ammonia producing the stinky or ammoniacal odor)
i have a lot of free time and so i learned solving the rubik's cube.. just more practice.. im aiming to solve it in less than 2 minutes.. ;)


my favorite... baked lasagna..
being inside a subdivision, this bakeshop is still visited by a lot of customers, anytime of the day. either ure looking for pasalubong to give to friends back in Manila or just looking for a place to grab some snacks, Edna's cakeland is really a nice place to go to.. it is one of my favorite places here in the province. great food and cakes. i am a sweet tooth myself.. i love cakes, leche flans, cheese... im a dessert person so cakeland is really a place for me where i can find a lot of my favorite things under one roof.

their place is really clean. good food, good service and good quality. the problem of course is that, you cant eat here everyday.. because the food is really rich. it's nice to go here if your looking for comfort food. the price is just right. not that expensive. the baked lasagna only costs 65 pesos. i like eating garlic bread with it. they are sold separately btw.:)

cakes, flans, cupcakes, halo-halo
sylvanas.. sansrival

bread, cookies, biscotti, lenguabrownies, revel bar, praline, mango bar, etc..


my friend was thoughtful to send me a text message out of the blue. he told me to eat grilled salmon or sushi for dinner because it relieves depression daw.. how sweet.. hehe..

and now coz of that, i began to have a craving.. oh no... and im craving for this... waah..

mouth-watering, melts in your mouth salmon sashimi..
(photo: taken from tasteto.com
Mittomi sushi & bar)

i cant really remember when i started enjoying eating raw fish.. i really love it! when we eat at saisaki ultimate buffet, i normally go straight to the sushi bar.. last time we went there(few weeks ago) i took this picture of my plate.

im not really sure if there are harmful effects in eating a lot of sashimi.. but my med school friends often tease me a lot during our parasitology class because many of the parasites we've studied can be transmitted by eating raw fish.. i dont care! :) im parasite-free so far!
it is so hot this summer.. i heard the temperature outside is bout 36 degrees C or even more! its really important to rehydrate and have some refreshment..
great taste caffe chocolate.. bought this from 7 eleven for only 20 pesos.. really good!

my sister in law made this halo-halo for me.. yum!


been staring at this box.. but cant seem to start a post.. things are running through my head but they are locked up inside.. the words have run out.. feelings i cant express.. thoughts i cant figure out.. am i out of my mind? an april fool i am.. it's ok if i just happened to be a fool for today.. but no.. been one for couple of years now.. and still counting..
ive been carrying this weight for quite a while now but why.. apparently i cannot leave this weight behind.. i have no control.. do i?? if i can just be in another place, in another time.. with no memories of you.. i hate it.. why should i be sad? i should be glad.. no more lies.. no more deception.. i wish someone can discover a cure for a broken heart.

enough with the drama already..

i was bout to drop my resume this afternoon to this hospital..

they told me they'll accept me.. theyre just waiting for my resume.. i was really decided to work yesterday.. but today.. i started to think.. typical me.. :) what the heck.. ill drop it tomorrow. :) i have to practice my skills.. gotta use my license. may the lord God be with me..

anyway bout the title.. just a trivia. did you know how the april fool's day celebration started?
according to kuya kim(tv patrol), before the gregorian calendar was created and made official, the people back then used to begin the year in april 1. when the use of the gregorian calendar began, it created come confusion. this was influenced by the lack of information dissemination way back in the old days. low tech.. so while most people already started the year in Jan 1, there are some who were left uninformed and still used April 1st as the beginning of the year thus the birth of April Fool's day.

it is currently celebrated in some countries(not common here in the Philippines) though not an official holiday. a day of hoaxes and pranks.

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"i'm glad i had the chance to clean up my fridge and got away with the old rotten fish i've been keeping for years...now i'm back, sailing and fishing..and i think the gods are with me, because the waves are coming to me..with it are varieties a lot better than the fish i once had..."
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