it was again one of those moments..kaya ayoko nang matagal wala ginagawa (i dont like it when i'm idle). i know i should be studying right now but i can't seem to pick up my books and notes. with 2 days to go before the shifting exams. wala pa rin ako energy. i just end up staring at my notes. they are still scattered on the floor..hm.. it started with a phone call from a sick dad which really made me sad. tapos ayun nasundan na when i saw something (which had nothing to do with my dad) and was reminded.
ghosts of the past revisit me.. they bombard me again and again.. and with what? the same old damn questions.. questions without answers. they can never be answered. they will never be answered. they're bothering me again.. so being the OC that i am, i asked my friend, "what should i do? should i look for answers", then he replied, "nope. do nothing. coz if you continue asking, you will only be left with more questions.."
yeah.. he has a point. some things in life are just meant to be left alone. they don't really need to be answered.. and sometimes, the answer could be hiding inside you. you may know it. you only refuse to accept it.
what to do?
just let go.. the world will never end just because some things were never laid out to you. everything goes on. you'll be left out if you dont stop lingering. there are a lot of better things to do and enjoy in life.
what i realized?
im still the same old me. naive. how naive of me to believe that there is goodness in everyone. there will always be exceptions..yes, people lie.
why do people lie?
coz they have something to gain or lose.. that simple.
masyado ba bitter? ngek.. hindi naman.. just some of my thoughts bout life. he he..
mahirap talaga pag wala kasama sa bahay.. at wala makausap.
sa mga nakakabasa.. ok lang naman ako. wala palang siguro sa mood. pre-exam syndrome/ tamaritis.. pero im ok. by tomorrow back to work na ko 'let. right now, out for fresh air muna..:)
friend: tamo sabi ko sayo eh
friend: as long as may contact kayo never ka makakagetover
me: nde nmn eh hehe
friend: anong hindi ka diyan tignan mo sa georgia ang dami nang namatay
me: anu ba kasi pinaglalabanan dun saka ano connection ng georgia
friend: kasi diba ang georgia dati part siya ng soviet union
friend: nung cold war. kaso since 92 nung breakup ng ussr naglelean siya more sa side ng west europe at saka US
friend: for example meron 2,000 sundalo ang georgia sa iraq w/c is the third largest contingent dun after the US and the UK
me: o tpos
friend: tas gusto nila sumali ng NATO
me: anu nga koneksyon nun?
friend: eh siyempre ang russia ayaw nila ng member ng NATO sa doorstep nila
me: o tpos anu nga?
friend: tas yung south ossetia claimed siya by both russia (kung saan sinsupport nila yung separatist movement dun) at saka georgia
me: parang nde related sakin un
friend: haha sorry ha.. i was only trying to say na dun thousands of people have died and la silang tubig, pagkain. at least ikaw buhay ka. may tubig at pagkain ka. that's all i was trying to say
me: ahh.. oo nga naman :p eh ok naman ako eh!
enegue
August 10, 2008 at 7:27 PM
cam: hugs :) natuwa naman ako, napasok ang georgia sa topic :)
KRIS JASPER
August 10, 2008 at 11:37 PM
MAy war... Olympics pa naman.
There's "evilness" in all of us... yun nga lang, ang iba 1% lang... ang iba naman maximum percentage cguro.
philos
August 11, 2008 at 1:29 AM
I'd like to think there's good in everyone, trouble is, they don't always let it win. Why don't you write down your questions? Then figure out an answer to each one of 'em all by yourself--you can be as creative as you want. Then in a few weeks, if you feel the need to get answers once more, just read through your questions... rewrite the answers if you don't think they're a fit.
That should help. Do let me know how it works out. :)
atto aryo
August 11, 2008 at 12:01 PM
he he. ang kulit ng kwentuhan. at talagang hinanap ko pa si Georgia sa first part ng post. heheheh
Anonymous
August 11, 2008 at 6:30 PM
narelate nya pa yun ha...
sabagay. hahaha
ayus naman si friend. heheh
Ferrarimarky
August 12, 2008 at 9:13 PM
Camille
August 12, 2008 at 10:14 PM
hm.. anu tong deleted comment? anyway pasensha na sa madramang post.. sabi ni carlos drama daw.. haha.. oh well.. :)
philos
August 13, 2008 at 12:29 AM
Haha... it's ok, this is a memoir after all :) Hey, I just tagged you btw. :p
Anonymous
August 15, 2008 at 7:23 PM
hahaha. kulit ng friendship mo. ;) anyways, me too. hindi ko din gusto yung wala akong ginagawa. masyadong malikot ang kukote ko. daming pumapasok na mga ala-alang dapat ng kalimutan. ;)
Anonymous
August 16, 2008 at 1:12 PM
i have to agree... the best way to move on is to cut ties with the person who's causing you pain.
i don't exactly know you but i'd like to share a quote my friend used to tell me before...
"have faith in better days..."
ironically, you have the same name ;-)
Camille
August 19, 2008 at 7:04 AM
kabute: ei salamat sa pagbisita.. yeah medyo may kakulitan nga yun pag humirit. hehe..
mnel: thanks for sharing your opinion. i appreciate it very much.
til your next visit!
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