it was again one of those moments..kaya ayoko nang matagal wala ginagawa (i dont like it when i'm idle). i know i should be studying right now but i can't seem to pick up my books and notes. with 2 days to go before the shifting exams. wala pa rin ako energy. i just end up staring at my notes. they are still scattered on the floor..hm.. it started with a phone call from a sick dad which really made me sad. tapos ayun nasundan na when i saw something (which had nothing to do with my dad) and was reminded.
ghosts of the past revisit me.. they bombard me again and again.. and with what? the same old damn questions.. questions without answers. they can never be answered. they will never be answered. they're bothering me again.. so being the OC that i am, i asked my friend, "what should i do? should i look for answers", then he replied, "nope. do nothing. coz if you continue asking, you will only be left with more questions.."
yeah.. he has a point. some things in life are just meant to be left alone. they don't really need to be answered.. and sometimes, the answer could be hiding inside you. you may know it. you only refuse to accept it.
what to do?
just let go.. the world will never end just because some things were never laid out to you. everything goes on. you'll be left out if you dont stop lingering. there are a lot of better things to do and enjoy in life.
what i realized?
im still the same old me. naive. how naive of me to believe that there is goodness in everyone. there will always be exceptions..yes, people lie.
why do people lie?
coz they have something to gain or lose.. that simple.
masyado ba bitter? ngek.. hindi naman.. just some of my thoughts bout life. he he..
mahirap talaga pag wala kasama sa bahay.. at wala makausap.
sa mga nakakabasa.. ok lang naman ako. wala palang siguro sa mood. pre-exam syndrome/ tamaritis.. pero im ok. by tomorrow back to work na ko 'let. right now, out for fresh air muna..:)
friend: tamo sabi ko sayo eh
friend: as long as may contact kayo never ka makakagetover
me: nde nmn eh hehe
friend: anong hindi ka diyan tignan mo sa georgia ang dami nang namatay
me: anu ba kasi pinaglalabanan dun saka ano connection ng georgia
friend: kasi diba ang georgia dati part siya ng soviet union
friend: nung cold war. kaso since 92 nung breakup ng ussr naglelean siya more sa side ng west europe at saka US
friend: for example meron 2,000 sundalo ang georgia sa iraq w/c is the third largest contingent dun after the US and the UK
me: o tpos
friend: tas gusto nila sumali ng NATO
me: anu nga koneksyon nun?
friend: eh siyempre ang russia ayaw nila ng member ng NATO sa doorstep nila
me: o tpos anu nga?
friend: tas yung south ossetia claimed siya by both russia (kung saan sinsupport nila yung separatist movement dun) at saka georgia
me: parang nde related sakin un
friend: haha sorry ha.. i was only trying to say na dun thousands of people have died and la silang tubig, pagkain. at least ikaw buhay ka. may tubig at pagkain ka. that's all i was trying to say
me: ahh.. oo nga naman :p eh ok naman ako eh!
